Coming from a wealthy background, I was so fortunate to have the financial space to really look into the development of my soul, my life purpose, my spiritual growth. After working a few years in finance/economics, following my father's lifepath in business and trying to fit in, i realised that my calling was a very different one.

In my twenties and early thirties I travelled a lot and explored different areas of this beautiful planet:
Polynesia, New Zealand, Hawaii, always fascinated by indigenous culture and spiritual wisdom. I lived in the north of Sweden, working with sled dogs. I drove through India and Nepal in an old camper van. I travelled through Canada and Alaska, hiking, paddling the Yukon River, living a few weeks in a simple cabin in the woods in Alaska, working on a campsite in Inuvik, NWT, on the Mac Kenzie Delta far, far, up north. I went to art school to do my Bachelor of Arts/Sculpture. I spent months in Norway, working for and learning from artists & sculptors, creating and working my own sculptures - a real rock'n roll lifestyle as an artist.

Then I started my spiritual path over twenty years ago, by becoming a yoga instructor, learning about Ayurvedic medicine and different massage techniques, diving deeper into bodywork and energetic healing, tantric bodywork, the teachings of Daoism and Tantra, and pranayama, the energy of breathwork. I lived in India for a couple of years, deepening my knowledge, my practices of meditation, yoga, breathwork, living in different ashrams and making art. I fell in love with a French man and moved to France, living in the surroundings of Plum Village, the Buddhist monastery of Zen-Master Thich Nhat Hanh, practicing mindfulness.

I then became a mother of two beautiful boys and fulfilled the dream of renovating an old French countryside farmhouse and growing a big vegetable garden and fruit orchard. I enjoyed the ups and downs of motherhood, the bliss and downfalls, the beauty and struggle of being parents and not only a couple anymore. I became a breathwork therapist and a mindfulness trainer.

Because I had my parents as an example, who had been married quite happily for 56 years, I struggled to admit that my marriage wasn't going well and that I was not happy anymore. What was wrong with me? 'I should be able to make this work, I want to keep this family together, I feel like a failure, I can carry even more on my shoulders, I am strong, I can do it, etc' ...these were my daily judgements and mantras.

In 2017 my dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer and he died 11 months later. We kept him at home until the end and I was so lucky to spend the last 4 weeks with him, taking care of him. With my mum, my brother, my partner and my kids, we were all sticking around, supporting each other. I was sitting for hours at his bedside, sometimes he was just sleeping. I would meditate, read, read to him, sing mantras. He would talk to me, share memories. We would cry together. He shared about his fear of death with me. Having always been in charge and in control of his life and his business, he was facing his inability to trust and let go of control. Being with him and staying present with whatever he was going through was one of my biggest life teachings. I felt so much love for him, and I was happy when he could finally let go of his body.

His death brought a deep transformation for me, realising how precious every minute of our life is and how quickly it can be over. At this moment I promised myself to take better care of myself, letting go of the 'I should, I must, I have to...'. I promised myself to follow my heart and soul's calling. The first result of this was to get a divorce, which I never thought would be an option. We got a divorce, slowly moving through conscious uncoupling and towards shared custody for our boys. We felt appreciation for what we had built together and what we had shared while knowing that our life path together was over. Working through ego stuff, letting go of hurt and blame, growing up even more - life goes on in its own mysterious ways.

When I was a young child I was sexually abused by my uncle and my grandfather. I was deeply wounded by these experiences, I started to realise that, when I began to explore sexually in my teenage years and in my wild twenties. I spent years in therapy and alternative healing settings, trying to find my path with my history, trying to heal my body, my soul, trying to belong, trying to find my trust in life, in my well-being, in my choices, trying to heal sexually and emotionally from this huge betrayal. When I was sixteen I started to be interested in tantra and the old Daoist teachings. I was looking for ways out of my suffering. Later in life I came back to this and I became a tantric bodyworker. Because I released all this shame and suffering from my own body, I could guide others on their path into connected and joyful sexual expression. I knew that this would be one of my life's big callings, to heal myself and to help others to find freedom, peace, joy and connection in and with their sexuality.

So after the loss of my dad and the divorce I turned my focus to becoming a sex and couples' counsellor, a love, sex & relationship coach, a trauma informed life transition coach & holistic health coach. I fell in love, again with a French man, following my heart's calling even more. I moved again, buying a house this time on the island of Belle Île en Mer, "the beautiful island in the sea" in the south of Brittany.

I now live two different lives: one with my boys and my friends in a small beautiful bastide town in the South West of France, being a mother, working as a coach and counsellor; then, travelling back up north, I slip into me - the woman and artist, creating a lifestyle connected to the seasons, the ocean, nature, nurturing my artist's soul, my deep longing for connection with the wise and wild woman inside of me. I work with plant medicine, the connection with God, the spirit world, cosmic energy, however you might call this, the connection with your soul, your spirit, your higher self.

I turned 50 this year and I received this like a total blessing. I feel very aligned with my inner being, my calling. More and more I follow my own truth, my heart. I am grateful for the life I had and the life I have. What I feel deeply these days is that our whole life's path is a preparation for death, for this last big portal we will all have to take, like it or not. This is our grand finale. And I want to take this one gracefully and consciously with a laughing heart, knowing that I lived my life to the fullest, in accordance with my life's purpose and deep calling.

At one point we all have to look into the abyss of our souls, our shadows, development traumas, beliefs, conditioning, habits, addiction, denial, numbness, whatever form it takes to keep us small or stuck, and follow the path of integration, healing and growing fully into the incarnation of this lifetime. I realise that all experiences and all traumas are an invitation to help us reconnect to our higher self, to bring us back into God consciousness. In my professional life I see myself more like a doula, a spiritual pathfinder, I am here to help you birth your ideas, your creativity, your connection to your life's deepest calling, your liberation of beliefs and traumas, your wise and wild side, your love for life,for yourself and your liberated sexual expression of who you are.

May this path be beautiful and rich.